The usual disclaimers. I don't own the characters, I don't make money from them.
Louis, Interrogative.
1 janvrier, 2000
Gairid
I was lying sprawled over Louis, my head on his flat stomach, my
body between his long legs. I felt like so much pulled taffy, all loose and
ropy, my muscles totally beyond any command my woozy brain might think to
impose upon them. I could feel a loud purr of contentment issuing from my
chest, as Louis stroked my head, his own satisfaction evident in his slow,
languid movement. Satiated. Spent. Pick your word. More simply stated, damn, I
felt good.
After a time I felt that an attempt to move was in order,
and when I found that I *could* I squirmed my way up Louis' body and rolled off
of him so that I could look at him. Looking at Louis is always a good way to
wake up from any post-coital lethargy. He reached for the slashed sheet, but I
grabbed his hand playfully.
"Don't, Louis. " I said. "I'm
*looking*"
He obliged me by letting go of the sheet, and then
stretching before me. As good as he always looks, he knows me, and he knows I
like to see the play of his muscles when he lengthens himself that way. I also
knew it to be a signal that he, too, was gearing up for Round Two. The night
was young, after all.
"Looking. " He said. He drew in a tiny breath
as I rolled his rather bruised-looking right nipple between my thumb and
forefinger. "You are a demon, Lestat. Insatiable, one might even suggest. I
must be doing something* wrong*, mustn't I?
He pushed my head to his
chest and I seized the now-erect nipple with my teeth, pulling on it a
little.
When I heard him hiss a little I let go of it.
"Wrong?" I
said, rolling on to my stomach and resting my head on my crossed arms. I looked
into his eyes. "Hardly. That was the *best*. I suppose I am insatiable
. I
*know* I never seem to be able to have enough of *you*, Cher." I watched as he
drew the tip of his tongue across his teeth. I was thinking of just where he'd
used that very same little muscle to drive me over the brink of sanity and
self-control only a short time ago. I'd come so hard I lost consciousness
briefly. Minor infraction of the *Rules*, that slip of mine. I knew I'd be put
to task for it at some time or other. I looked forward to it in fact.
"The Best?" he said. That tone. I knew that tone. I chose to ignore what
it might mean, and I moved closer to him, kissing him. He responded eagerly,
and I thought I'd deflected him from whatever train of thought he'd seized
upon. I didn't know what it was, but like I said. I *knew* that tone. I also
should have known that it would take more than a little making out to deflect
that mind of his from whatever course he'd decided to follow.
He
pushed me back, and sat up, with his back resting against the scarred headboard
of the bed, his legs straight out before him, crossed at the ankles. The deep
scratches in the dark cherrywood were mine, but it was Louis who had cracked
the thing down the middle. It looked like it *might* last the night, seeing as
Louis seemed to have something on his mind.
"Tell me something,
Lestat," He said, trying to smooth the medusa-like tangle that his hair was in.
After a moment he gave it up as a lost cause. "You often speak in superlatives.
Just now you referred to our lovemaking
*this time*
as 'the
best. "
I moved to sit up beside him. He leaned forward as I
draped one of the quilts over his shoulders, and waited for me to pull the
other side over mine.
"The *best* you said. Non?" He persisted.
"Yes. What's your point?" I asked him, taking his hand in mine.
"You say that all the time though." He said, squeezing my hand a little.
I smiled, relaxing against him.
"That's because every time is the
best time. " I said, pleased with myself. I meant it, too.
He turned
his head to look at me, knowing that I was already gazing at his profile.
I know you think that." He said affectionately. His smile was warm and
radiant, and loving.
When he looks at me that way, I can hardly stand
how crushingly sublime it makes me feel. It's a feeling that's close to fear
somehow, because it's such a *huge* feeling.
"But I want to know,
'Stat, which time do you think really * was* the best?" He looked at me
expectantly.
I opened my mouth to say something, and then abruptly
shut it again. Louis and his questions. His goddamned straightforward,
tell-me-because-I really-want-to-know-what-you-are-thinking questions. And I'll
answer him
or *try* to, because I love him, and one of the many reasons I
love him is *because* he asks me such things, *because* he *does* wish to
know.
There was only one problem. What the hell was the right answer?
I rested my head back against the uneasy headboard to think about it a little.
Louis laid his head on my shoulder, waiting.
Now, first let me say
something, in case there is any doubt or anything. If Louis asks me a question
like this and I decide I wish to answer it, he expects me to be honest, and
tell him what I really think. He's not looking for an answer that will please
*him*, or some sort of ego stroking. What he wants from me is to *know*. There
is also the small and utterly true fact that Louis does not have much of an ego
per say. I have more than enough for the two of us, anyway. So with that said I
will go on with my little story.
"I'm supposed to tell you what I
think was actually *the* best time?" I asked. I already had something in my
mind, but I wanted to make sure I was clear on what he wished to know.
"You're stalling, 'Stat. This isn't a test. I'm curious, nothing more." He
said. He moved down a little, and rolled to his stomach, pulling his side of
the blanket over his back. He placed his arms to either side of my thigh, his
hands laced over my leg, about half way up from my knee. He rested his chin on
his fingers and gazed up at me.
"I know what you're thinking, you
know." He said, grinning up at me.
"Oh?" His face was disconcertingly
close to my groin. He pulled the quilt across my legs.
"Yes. And the
right answer is whatever you tell me. Come, now. One time, at least, must stand
out. When I asked you I could see *something* jumped right to the front of your
mind.
"Something did, as a matter of fact." I agreed. "Remember the
night with the flail?
Louis feigned innocence.
"Flail?
Please refresh my memory, darling. And leave nothing out, mind you. Which flail
do you mean. There *is* more than one, or have you forgotten?"
As if I
could.
"The flail that I made with your own beautiful hair, Mon
Ange." I said, reaching my hand to stroke his face.
There are times,
when we are making love that we become quite exuberant. Carried away? By this
time, you who are reading this must know that our avenues of pleasure are not
in the least narrow or confined. Sensation for us is blurred, pain being a part
of our pleasure when it suits us. There have been times when I've pulled hair
from my darlings' head in the throes of some ecstatic moment. When this happens
I invariably keep the hair clutched in my hand, always placing it on my night
table afterward. I save these parts of my angel, unwilling to burn or otherwise
dispose of it. It's somehow not the same as when he cuts his hair himself.
I keep Louis' hair, taken from him in passion, and I put it in a box, an
ornate little chest actually, that sits on the shelf in our armoire. One
evening, I opened it, intending to place another precious bundle of his hair
inside. Looking into it, I noticed that I'd collected rather a lot of it. I
took the box with me into the library, placing it on the little carved games
table that we have, and I returned to the bedroom, searching through the
organizer in the closet until I found what I was looking for. I brought that
also into the library.
There were a few things I needed that I knew
were not to be found in the house, so I dressed and made ready to go in search
of them. I was intent on this little project, a small gift I wished to make for
Louis.
He had gone out and was just returning as I was leaving. He looked
at me in surprise when we met in the foyer. I kissed him and told him that I
would be back soon, leaving him at the door watching me with a bemused smile on
his face as he watched me move down the street. I blew him a kiss and went on
my way.
I went right into the library upon my return, calling to Louis
that I was back. I tossed my jacket, onto one of the chairs, and sat down at
the table. Arranging my purchases, I contemplated how I might best begin. Louis
wandered in as I was taking a section of his hair from the little chest,
lifting it to my nose to inhale his scent. He looked curiously at the things on
the table, and then crossed the room to the deal table there, moving aside some
books and seating himself upon it. He didn't speak, just crossed his legs and
drew them up to his chest, clasped loosely in his arms. Watching me.
I
quickly became absorbed in what I was doing, binding Louis' black hair in
small, neat lengths with black, waxed thread. Each length pushed through tiny
holes I punched through a section of black leather, and fastened there with a
needle and thread. After several tries, I was able to do these small, precise
things easily enough. I took my time, breathing in Louis' scent, and reveling
in the silky feel of his black hair. Listening to his soft breathing as he sat
across the room from me, watching me as I worked.
*****
(Louis)
Usually when Lestat does anything, it's accompanied with bright
light, and, more often than not, ear-splittingly loud music. I had been
surprised when he passed me on his way out earlier. He was not gone long, and
when he returned he called to me that he was back, disappearing into the
library. Curious, I followed him in and stood behind him where he sat at the
games table with a rather strange array of objects before him, and only the
small high-intensity lamp switched on. No music. No television blaring from the
other room.
He looked up from his contemplation of the items, smiling
at me with a little anticipatory gleam in his azure eyes. He did not speak, and
neither did I. I went across the room and sat down on the table there to watch
him. He set about his work with precise deliberation, and it did not take me
long to figure out what he was making. I gazed at him, fascinated by his
absorption, by the economical, graceful movements of his long fingers, and the
way his golden hair tumbled over his brow, and into his eyes.
He was taking his time, smoothing the lengths of hair between his
fingers, scenting all the while, clearly enjoying what he was doing. Never one
to be still for very long, his body rocked minutely to some inner rhythm, his
right leg moving back and forth, back and forth in his usual restless manner.
His beautiful face is so expressive, his emotions easily seen as they cross his
features; a small pulling in of his brows showed impatience, the curve of his
lips in a little smile signaled satisfaction. The tip of his pink tongue held
between his teeth denoted concentration. Seeing him thus was like being given a
precious gift, for I do so love to watch him, my golden one.
I could
not recall ever seeing him involved in such a single-minded pursuit, though I
have often sat and listened as he played the piano, at those times also unable
to take my eyes from him. In many instances, though, Lestat's attention is
easily diverted, a child-like trait that I adore in him. It's amusing to hear
him arguing with a set of directions on how to operate this or that electronic
gadget, as though by saying things out loud he can somehow make the thing work
in the way he wishes it to.
As I sat there I could hear him humming
under his breath, a French tune from his childhood, one he'd taught to me long
ago. I hadn't heard it in a very long time. My eyes welled up, as I listened to
him. Mon Ange.
*****
I don't know how long it took me to finish. It didn't seem long. After
fixing the hair to the leather I glued it to the base of a rather large and
interesting looking sexual prop
commonly called a dildo
and then I
bound it more securely with the waxed thread. What I held in my hands when I'd
finished was what would have been called a scourge, or a flail. Such things had
been used at one time by monks and nuns and other assorted religious folk in
ritual flagellation, a way to cleanse oneself of sin. This was not at all what
I had in mind when I made the flail. We had several others, all of which were
rather more punishing in aspect. Looking at it, trailing the long hair over my
arm gave me a hot shiver.
Louis left his spot on the table and stood
looking down at me. I offered the flail to him, and he took it from me, his
eyes dilated slightly as he turned the thing in his hands. The phone rang in
the office.
"Go and answer that Lestat." Louis said, a strange note in
his voice. A sound that sent another of those hot shivers through me.
Something. Something in his mind. I went to answer the phone.
It was
one of the myriad contractors, needing to ask me questions about renovations to
one of our properties, the place over on Rue Toulouse. I was on for a few
minutes, when Louis came in to the office. He had removed his shirt, but still
had on his jeans. He tapped the flail rhythmically against his leg as he
mouthed to me to continue my conversation. I have no idea what I said to that
contractor, although I recall that he called back a few days later and asked if
I felt better, and could we please discuss the change in plans.
I was
standing in front of the desk, as Louis approached me. He held my eyes as he
unbuttoned my jeans and pushed them down over my hips with one hand. He
continued tapping his thigh with the flail.
I stepped out of my pants and
he pushed me back against the edge of the desk, parting my thighs by standing
between them. I was babbling, quite incoherently to the hapless contractor,
realizing dimly that I was making no real sense. Louis unbuttoned my shirt and
pushed it over my shoulder, and ran the hair...*his* hair
across my
spread thighs and over my straining cock, a wicked smile on his face. I
concluded my conversation, to the contractors' relief, I am quite sure.
"Did you make this for me, Mon Ange?" He asked. My hands were busy
unbuttoning his pants and he was running the hair across my belly as he pushed
me back slightly.
"I made it for you." I confirmed. He stepped back to
let me push his jeans down. Freed, he leaned to kiss me, teasing my lips with
little bites. I could feel his cock, insistent between my legs and I moved my
hips forward. He put the flail in my hand, as he pressed his hips tightly to
me, his cock rubbing deliciously against mine.
"Put it inside me,
'Stat. Pleasure me. I want it. I want it." His voice was low, not pleading so
much as daring. I put my arms around his hips and he drew back, his hands on
me, lifting my ass away from the desk as he positioned himself against the
opening to my body even as I did the same with the end of the flail to his.
"Do it. " He hissed.
I pushed it up into him, slowly, and as I
did this, he moved into me just as slowly, the pressure of my hands guiding the
flail into him pushing him forward and into me. He pushed me back so that I was
half reclining the hair of his head fell forward, over my face as he drew one
finger bruisingly hard across my lips, hissing as I moved the handle of the
flail into him. I ground myself to him, reveling in the way he filled me,
wanting more. He brought a knee up onto the desk to give himself more leverage,
and making himself more
accessible at the same time. I could feel the hair
from the flail against my balls, tickling the insides of my thighs as I worked
him.
With one hand, Louis cleared the top of the desk noisily, things
crashing to the floor and papers flying. He pushed me onto my back, and I
momentarily lost my grip on the flail as he thrust roughly into me.
I could
feel blood running from me, pooling on the blotter beneath me, as I managed to
get my hands on the flail. I could feel the hair on it, spread over his ass,
and I groaned as I pictured how that must look, his ass, covered with his
beautiful hair, clenching and unclenching as he moved in out of me, his cock
slicked with my blood.
I was vaguely aware that the desk had been
inching forward with the force of our movements
it met the wall, finally.
We were grappling with each other, wrestling for the best position, our bodies
striving and straining. Louis gained a brief advantage, moving down and pulling
me with him so that we were lying almost prone, He pulled my leg over himself,
and we were moved into a spooned position. I twisted my arm back around to
grasp the flail as he moved slow and hard inside me.
I jumped when he
curled his hand around my cock, and I could feel his mouth at my neck, his hair
cascading forward over my shoulder. I fought to keep control, but his hand on,
his cock moving inside me, it was madness
it was pushing me,
pushing
He sank his fangs into my neck with a sound between a
moan and a snarl, drawing strongly from me. I felt him, felt him there with me,
mind to mind, I could taste with him how my blood burned in his mouth. He
calmed me somewhat, as I felt him change the rhythm of his hips. He moved out
of me, and then back into me slowly. His movement was deliberate, less intense
than the frenetic pounding. He was throttling back, holding us both. Slowly,
out of me. Into me, hard. Demanding. Slowly, out
and his mouth. Suckling
from me, connecting us. When he was hilted in me, I held him tightly, tried to
keep him there, but he did not let up his slow thrusts. Filling me as he was
also filled, and I could
I could feel *that* too, the flail, unyielding in
his flesh.
He'd let up the pressure of his hand around my cock, and I
moved trying to *feel* more, trying to feel pressure that was not there. The
tension coiled in my belly, doubled by the pressure of Louis inside me.
Deliciously agonizing
how I loved it, strained on the edge of climax,
trembling and hot and slicked with our bloodsweat. Louis' will, holding us
there, poised together, twitching and shuddering.
I raised my leg up,
wanting more of him. The blood flowing from me facilitated his increasingly
brutal thrusts and I had all this while managed to keep working Louis with the
flail, my body twisted in a way that I am certain would be quite impossible for
a mortal. There was vicious pain as he fucked me, overlaid with obliterating
pleasure.
And then, excruciatingly, he was gone from inside me. He'd
pulled out and left me gasping with the sudden loss of him. He turned his body,
and his ass was there, close to my face, the flail with all that beautiful hair
hilted deeply within him. He went down on me with a vengeance and I was so
sore, I could barely move my legs at first. I pushed my face against the hilted
flail, groaning and grasping his hips tightly. Our bodies bowed outward at the
same time as he ran his hand along my legs. He rubbed his face in the fine hair
between my legs, biting me up and down along my inner thighs and sinking his
fangs into my flesh. He smeared the flowing blood over his lips and
face
down his neck.
He caught my straining cock and rubbed his
face sensuously against it
and as he slid the skin of it back and forth he
pushed one fang into the slitted opening at the tip. I couldn't breathe,
couldn't make a sound. Arched to him, trembling, my hands spasming helplessly.
He ground his ass against my face, where I'd pushed the hair aside so that I
could lap at his stretched and yearning orifice.
"Take it out." Louis
growled, tensely.
I removed the flail, slowly, and licked at him,
lapping at the blood that spilled from him, little shocks of pleasure upon my
tongue. He reached for me, grasping my hands in his and pulling me on top of
him, kissing me, still holding my hands. He was breathing heavily, panting as
his tongue darted in my mouth. In a fluid movement, he pushed me up, and back
so that I was sitting on my haunches. He turned, reared up, pausing for a
moment, turning his head to look down into my eyes, his aspect hungry,
driven
and then he impaled himself upon my cock, wringing a coughing snarl
from me as I pulled him to me, his back against my chest.
I began to
rock, and he was with me
. *with* me, and we made our own rhythm. 'In
him
. ' I was thinking, ' I am in him and I am his, and he is mine, and
Mon Dieu, he feels so good
.' On and on, like that in my mind. I could
hear Louis, keening, deeper than usual, more in his chest, the sound. I could
feel it vibrating through his back.
Maybe there were words spoken,
maybe they were just sounds, salacious thoughts, salacious words. I was
growling softly, and murmuring to him as I moved inside of him. He placed his
hands over mine, drawing one to his groin, curling his hand over mine as I
cupped him. He took my other hand and rubbed it up and down first one of his
legs and then the other, and then drawing my palm across the taut flesh of his
lower belly. He was muttering in my ear,
promising
.entreating
daring, all the while moving my hands over his
skin as we rocked together.
"Lestat? My own
?" He murmured as we
rocked slowly together.
He leaned back, his legs spread over me as he ground down upon me
even as I pushed up into him. His head was back against my shoulder and he
pushed his face up beneath my hair, breathing into my ear, and sweeping his
eyelashes against the side of my face. I had my fingers on the tops of his
thighs, at the crease of his groin, my thumbs pressed into his hips, holding
his legs apart as I continued to thrust into him.
"Yes, Love?" I
whispered. My eyes were closed.
Louis moaned as we moved together. I
tightened my hand slightly around his cock. His beautiful cock. He was still
tracing his body with my other hand.
"Where
where is it?"
He said gutturally.
"Where is what, Sweeting?" I asked him. He was so
tight around me, his inner muscles clenching and releasing in time with our
movements.
"The flail. Where is it?" He moaned the words out.
I reluctantly removed my hand from beneath his, and groped for the flail.
"Here it is, my darling
" I said, shivering, as he tongued the inside
of my ear.
"Where has it been, my love?" He asked, his voice barely
audible.
Salacious. Ahh, he was.
"It's been inside of you,
my Angel. " I answered, my voice as soft as his, as I trailed the hair over his
white thigh.
"I
I want you to
.ahhh
" Keening, his
soft wail piercing my heart. I had not ceased in all this time moving inside
him.
"Tell me, Louis. Tell me what you want, my Baby." The friction of
his sleek, wet skin against mine
He was groaning, his body
writhing as I fucked him.
"Tell me
." I said again.
"What is on the flail, Lestat? Lover?"
"Your own beautiful hair, and
your precious blood. I can smell you there. " I said huskily.
"You
can? You can smell me? You
" He arched his body to me again, moaning.
"I can. I can smell you. " I brought the flail to my face, scenting the
part that had been inside of him, as he watched me, his eyes slitted.
"I want you to do something
.I want
.would you do something for me?"
Oh, his voice. It was beautiful in its wanting, the soft pleading I
could hear there.
"Tell me what you want, " I said, thrusting myself
deeply into him, "Tell me and I will do it. Whatever you wish of me I will do
for you."
"I want you to lick me off the flail." He said, grinding
his ass savagely against me.
I could smell him. Yes
I could smell
his blood, I could see it, streaked across the surface of the flail's handle.
Moaning softly I brought it to my mouth and lapped delicately at the red
smears. There was a surge of saliva into my mouth as I tasted him, and the
sweep of my tongue became voracious. He was panting in short, hard bursts as he
gazed at me.
"Suck it, darling
.as if it were me. I want
to
I want to *see*
." He voice broke as he growled gutturally.
He was rubbing is face against mine. I turned the flail and drew it into
my mouth, gore-streaked thing. Large, it was, though not so large as my Angel.
And on it, the taste and the smell of Louis, making it so much less a thing of
indifferent inanimation because of his living blood upon it, and the silky
movement of his hair sliding against the skin of my hand, my neck.
I
lapped at it as I pushed it further into my mouth, growling as I cleaned the
blood from it. Louis' growling matching mine as he watched me withdraw the
flail's handle from my mouth, my tongue still seeking the minute amounts of
blood I could sense upon it. I released it, and it dropped between our two
striving bodies, and I could feel the hair on it, Louis' beautiful hair pooled
around my cock as I pumped in and out of his ass.
"Take my cock
I
want your hands on me." His voice was terse, strained.
I worked him
with firm, sure strokes.
"Both hands." He said, moaning torturously. I
cupped his balls, rolling them in my hand.
His knees were to the wall
and he braced a hand there, reaching his other hand behind to pinch at my
nipples, rolling them between his thumb and finger, first one, and as he heard
my hiss of pain, then the other. I was moaning now, my head thrown back. He
whispered into my ear.
"Do with me
as you will, my love. Do what
you want to do
" He urged.
I released his balls, and took his
hand, and put it over mine as I squeezed and stroked him. I pushed him forward,
nearly off of my cock, and I picked up the flail, still wet with my spit. I
felt my focus narrow, my vision sharpened to this act, the thunder of our
twinned heartbeats roaring in my head. I positioned the head of the flail
beside my cock, and slowly
as slowly as I was able, I eased it into him.
Pushing myself into him beside the thing. I could hear his breath hitch and I
felt him push back against the pressure, his body accommodating the added width
of the flail.
When I was hilted inside him, and the flail alongside me, I began moving
in him again, the bloody, wet hair of it on my thighs. Deep, insistent
strokes
and I moved my hand on his cock in the same fierce rhythm, leaning
forward over his bowed back. I could feel him automatically arch to me.
Mon Ange, " I muttered, my voice hoarse, "My own. And I *will* do with you
as I will, Ah oui, take you this way, make you feel me. How I love you, Louis."
I was thrusting desperately into him by that time.
"What I feel for
you
" He whispered. I could hear his voice catch with a small, stifled
sob.
"
and my will, Louis
" I continued, panting, "
my
will is your will. Ahhh
Mon Dieu
my life. Yes. My life."
Thrusting into him still, myself, and the flail, hissing as I did so.
"Can you feel me? Can you, Louis? FEEL me? Because I can feel nothing but you.
There is nothing but you, my Own
my Louis."
"You are* all* I
feel, my darling. You are all I have *ever* felt." Louis said, his voice barely
a whisper as he turned his head to look at me.
A single tear, like a
garnet raindrop
it was trapped in the web of his eyelashes. I watched,
mesmerized as it escaped and slid down his perfect cheekbone.
I
pulled out of him briefly and removed the flail, dropping it on the desk beside
us. Hilted myself in him again, thrusting and moving my hands on his cock,
Trembling, again at that precipice, waiting for Louis so that we might fall
together. He opened his eyes and met mine, locked there, igniting us so that we
flared, and together left that brink where we been poised, dancing, for so
long. Minds twined, so that I could feel his climax as he felt mine, and the
hot blood from him covered my hands and his thighs, the wall running red with
it. I could feel Louis' chest expand as he inhaled and inhaled
breath
after breath, as though he could not pull in enough air. Blood still gouting
from his cock as it was from mine, the heat of his body absorbing all that I
was giving him.
Between us was the same thought, it was his and it was
mine, because for those moments when we are so linked there is no division
between our souls. I could feel the sweep of Louis' mind and memory existing
there alongside my own. The ringing, clear thought, echoing bell-like. Always
together, like this. Oh, that this would never, never end and we could be this
way forever. Always together, like this.
*****
As Lestat related this to me, he'd moved down and pulled me into
his arms, playing with my hair, as he so loves to do. His voice was rich and
beautiful as he spoke to me, leaving nothing out, just as I had asked him. I
had asked him this question, because I am always curious as to how his mind
works. What he will do or say next, and although I can often predict such
things quite accurately, he can and does still surprise me. Mercurial, he has
often been called, and that, of course is true, for he is a volatile and often
capricious creature. I love him for these qualities, and I love him for the
things that he has chosen to give to me alone.
I remember the
time he was speaking of, as I remember all my time with Lestat. I remember that
night with exquisite clarity; enhanced by his words
how I had felt
drowned in the hot, voluptuous sensation of Lestat in me and on me, and all
around me. The scent of our mingled blood had been powerful and heavy, as
though if I had opened my eyes, there would have been a mist of red raftered in
the humid air of that room. How his blood, released in his intense climax,
seared me inside, lava-like. How we think and feel as one being at such times.
How, when we are together thus I can see so much
bright light, motion and
emotion, texture. Sounds. All these things spinning and glittering around me.
Yes, I remember that night.
And it really is as Lestat said when I
first questioned him. He had spoken the words in simple vernacular, contented
afterglow conversation couched in 20th century words.
"That's because
every time is the best time." He'd said.
*****
When I finished relating my *best * time, I pulled Louis closer to me. Sometimes I worry about how desperate I feel, like I cannot get close enough to him, that he will be ephemeral, and I will somehow lose him. Like I dreamed him. A dream from my mortal life, a time when nothing that I had wanted stayed with me for the length of time it took me to be happy. I stroked his dark hair, treasuring the curve of his skull as though it were the last time I might feel such a thing. I felt an ache in my chest, remnant from the times that I thought he would leave me, remnant from any temporary separation from him. How would I feel if he did not love me? I could hardly bear to think of it, although I knew in my heart that he loved me to distraction.
As we lay together he reached up and touched my cheek. Myself, after having related *that* tale .well there was nothing more I wanted than to make love yet again. I know I am compulsive. I just cannot believe that anyone would actually love *me*. Always, and forever.
"So, Louis." I said, with what I thought was some modicum of control. "What did you think of my choice?"
His answer was to wind himself around my body, gripping me tightly.
"I told you, Mon Lion, that there was no real answer. I was curious as to what would jump into your brain, Stat. And I would confess something else. I do love to read your accounts of our encounters.. They are beautiful. Erotic. I am particularly pleased that you are saying such things about * us*, Mon Marquis."
I chuckled at that.
I had answered his question and I had pleased him, I think. My account, of course, could never cover all that exists between us, but we both know that, so its all right. And I knew he liked reading the stories. Im pretty sure that the few times I see him at the computer at all hes either reading e-mails that I send him (yes, I know hes right here with me, but I send them to him anyway.) or the accounts, as he called them.
He kissed me, and I rolled onto my back, pulling him on top of me.
"Round Two?" He said
FIN